Wednesday, April 13, 2011

The Eight Stages of Heartbreak Pizza (Bitchy Vegetarian Girlfriend)

Some people claim that cheese is their Prozac. I’m one of those people. I believe that cheese lifts downtrodden spirits. It comforts, cures, and calms.  Cheese is the best friend a person can have and will never let you down.  You can trust cheese.

The absolute ultimate in therapeutic cheese-eating is pizza. There is a pie for every occasion, and an occasion for every pie – but nowhere is pizza a more welcome support then when dealing with heartbreak. It nourishes the body as well as the soul.

SHOCK & DENIAL
The most acute heartbreak is that very first crack – the world as you know it has shattered, your friends do not understand, your family is useless and meddling, you do not even really know what happened, and nothing makes sense, and nothing will ever be good again.  Ever.
This realization calls for Chicago-style deep-dish pizza, and lots of it.  Stuff it with as many ingredients as you can; don’t worry about calories, you’ll probably not be able to choke down more than a few bites anyway. This is a promise.  But keep it around because there will be times, most likely at 4am, when you’ll need it. This pizza will always be there for you, unlike that fucker you just dumped.  This pizza will sate and comfort and never ask to have a threepover with that hot blonde delivery driver from the Chinese delivery place.

PAIN & GUILT
The pizza of penance: Tombstone Double-Cheese frozen pizza. Whatever happened, it was all your fault – you shouldn’t have questioned where he was the past four nights, you should have just smiled nicely when he made all those Nazi jokes, you shouldn’t have asked for that STD test.  You definitely should have been more understanding of his proclivities.  If you had, you’d still be together.  It’s your fault.
You still won’t be able to eat more than a few bites, but these bites will distract you with memories of other, difficult times. Remember that year you were in college and working full time for minimum wage and barely passing Astronomy 101 because you couldn’t stay awake because the girl who lived above you spent all her nights entertaining young men in a very loud and boisterous manner.  A string of men who, you came to find out, included your current boyfriend, at least one ex-, and that really nice guy in Anthro 301 who you were really hoping would ask you out on a study date?  That was all your fault too.  All you could afford to eat was freezer pizza, apples, and ramen – you had to work overtime to be able to splurge on beer to drown your sorrows.  Compared to now, that time was a good time.  A slice of Tombstone will take you back.

ANGER & BARGAINING
Now is the time to give into the stereotype and get yourself some Sicilian-style pizza.  Sicilian pizza tends to have a thicker, heartier, hand-tossed crust, and the cheese melted under the sauce. If it’s made by people in the know, there will also be a killer garlic bite – great for added effect when you are shaking your fists at the sky and yelling into the night (and also for warding off vampires). You’re releasing bottled-up emotion; you need to sink your teeth into a thick crust, you need the tang of a real, homemade tomato sauce.

DEPRESSION, REFLECTION, LONELINESS
By now, everyone is telling you to get on with your life, but you are still struggling with the reality of what really happened – god, he was such an asshole, but he was your asshole and for whatever misguided reason, you miss him.  Your friends want you to get back out there, to get some hair of the dog, to take up a hobby, to just do something!  But you’re not ready to leave the couch and the sweet, sweet comfort of the first three seasons of "Angel." You know you’ve been sad and lonely and you think you should probably at least get back to the gym, but only after a few pieces of St. Louis-style pizza. The cracker crust and portion shape (squares rather than slices)  circumvent the rationing process — they’re so tiny, and so tasty, you can eat a dozen of them, no problem! That is, until you realize that you’ve eaten more than half of the pizza by yourself.  If you weren’t alone, you’d share it, but you are, so you won’t.  Why even bother?  And your trip to the gym will be replaced by "Angel," season four.

THE UPWARD TURN
Your depression is lifting and you set your sights on California Pizza Kitchen – everything seems a bit more normal, maybe even brighter, and you feel okay stepping out for an evening and trying a few new things, things you’d never have tried with him.   Thai pizza with carrots and bean sprouts?  Japanese eggplant, roasted corn, and goat cheese?  Avocado and lettuce?  Sounds wild, why the hell not!  He’d never have agreed to share this kind of pizza with you; it’s time to take matters into your own hands.  Plus, they do that nice Strawberry Peach Margarita, and that always gets you a little giggly.

RECONSTRUCTION & WORKING THROUGH
You are on a mission, there’s no time for fuck around – you need no-frills pizza that will sustain you on the go.  This calls for Action Pizza, Adventure Pizza - Street pizza, New York Style!  The large slices can be eaten on the go – folded, stacked, or one-by-one, they’ll always be piping hot, with the cheese lightly browned and bubbling. Perfect, like you.  This is the on-the-go, let’s-go-tackle-the-world pizza. You don’t need anything too heavy, nothing that will bog you down – you’re functioning again, out in the world; you’re being practical, sassy, and best of all you’re realizing that you’re so much better off now.

ACCEPTANCE & HOPE
Now that you are starting to feel healthy and hopeful, you’ll probably start switching to things like bruscetta.  The past few months of melty cheese goodness have helped you, buoyed you, healed you, but there are repercussions.  Arterial repercussions, for one, and ones of the waistline.  But it’s ok, your soul has healed, and your body craves health now; instead of a 16” stuffed crust Pan Pizza with all the fixin’s, you’re having a toasted English muffin with marinara and a few thin slices of BabyBel Lite.  But it’s okay. It’s still pizza.  Trust me.  Things may not be perfect, but you’re moving forward now, and even though you still crave – and dive into– a four-cheese wood-fired pizza from time to time, it’s out of enjoyment, not necessity.  It’s awesome!

REVENGE
Like pizza, this dish is sometimes best served cold.  Just wait…

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